I slept great last night. I think I only got up once to hit the bathroom which is practically a miracle being in my 36th week of pregnancy.
I woke up and had planned on going to the gym, but as I moved and stretched to awaken my body, my muscles felt sore from the day before. Despite sleeping well, my body simply felt tired, unwilling and unmotivated. So I scratched the gym knowing I’ve already worked out three times this week and am signed up for barre class tomorrow. It seemed like a good day to take as a rest day from exercising.
After deciding to skip my workout, I lazily lounged in bed until almost 9:30am when my full bladder finally started screaming at me, “I have to pee NOW!” So I trudged my big pregnant body out of bed to pee. “Wow, I’m just tired and sore today”, is what went through my head as I sat on the cold toilet seat not even wanting to stand back up. I had mega cramps and my body felt sore and tired all over. But, sitting on the toilet all day wasn’t exactly what I had in mind. Although, some days I pee so much I think I may as well plant my ass there permanently.
I brushed my teeth, put my contacts in and saw a tired face when I looked in the mirror. “Maybe I should just be lazy today…?”, I thougt to myself. I didn’t feel super hungry or much like cooking anything complicated for breakfast, so I made a smoothie and went downstairs to catch up on a few emails. I thought about doing laundry, but I just didn’t feel like it. Then I thought about showering and going out to do run a few errands. Maybe the fresh air would wake me up? But it’s literally 10 degrees outside and the thought of bundling my pregnant ass up just didn’t appeal.
I dragged myself back upstairs, looked around my house, realized it’s clean and that I didn’t really have to do anything if I didn’t want to. My husband is forever telling me to take it easy and to just relax, as he did this morning when he bent over to kiss me goodbye before leaving for work. I looked at my couch and thought to myself, “A nap with some trash TV would be amazing right now.” But I felt grubby so I decided to take a long hot shower, throw on a fresh clean pair of pajamas, make a hot cup of tea, plant my tired pregnant ass in front of our gas fireplace and write.
I text my husband and said “Fyi, I’m not doing anything today. Sorry.” I always feel bad if I take a lazy day while he’s out busting his ass working. The last thing I am is lazy or expect life to be handed to me on a platinum platter. But, he immediately wrote back and told me to relax, I deserve it and to find a good movie to watch. My husband tells me all the time that he loves that I’m “not working.” And I put that in quotes because not being at a day job allows me to get everything done around the house which allows us SO much more quality time together. So, most days I’m working all day just like everyone else, I’m just not at an office.
My job has become being a housewife and growing a baby, and I couldn’t ask for anything better or more rewarding at this point in my life. Because even on a day like today where I plan to lounge around in my cute comfy pajamas and do nothing, I’m still doing a lot, I’m growing a baby! A human! My body is a busy bee 24 freakin’ 7 creating a life. So instead of dwelling on the slight twinge of guilt and laziness I felt when I decided to throw on these pajamas after showering and saying “screw it, I’m being lazy today”, I reminded myself that today I am making my baby. And today, I will allow myself and my body the rest it needs both physically and mentally to do what it needs to do. Because today I am making a baby! I plan to take more time to relish all the moments during the last few weeks of my first pregnancy and soak up the amazing fact that no matter what I do or don’t get done around the house, I am making a baby. How freakin’ awesome is that?!
What are you doing today?
~Sparke